I think too long I do not write any single word in my blog. Actually I don't have any idea to share in my blog spot. But in the meantime, I would like to share in what happen between this few weeks.

Almost every day, we heard a lot of people died and left us just like that, without any message left for us. Recently, we heard about Rabbani's vocalist, Ustaz Azri passed away and I felt so badly sad to hear.

Not even that, my neighbor also my grandfather of my father side, also left us without any single words to say. He gone after isyak's prayer on 11/8/2009 and fallen down in front of his house while he's locked his house. Actually on that night, he supposed to go to his daughter's house but somehow he collapse even not saying anything.

After then, not to far from my house, there one of our neighbor also passed away after 8 days my grandfather gone. and the same day also, in the afternoon, another neighbor again follows gone to meet Allah.

Now, I'm talking to myself, everyone will facing the same but we just don't know when our turn. Its make me so scare, I know I haven't prepare even single 'ibadah' for my own guidance. Ya Allah, could you please help me...give a way to me to know You as close as I can. Could you help me YA ALLAH....YA ALLAH...

Awal 2009

tahun 2009 dah pun menjelang. ah...begitu cepat masa berlalu.....bermakna usia pun dah pun naik ke satu lagi anak tangga. Tapi..tahun 2009, aku sambut dengan suasana yang amat sederhana. Belum apa-apa lagi, banyak peristiwa dah berlaku di awal tahun nie.

Yang tak dapat aku lupakan, apabila mak aku jatuh sakit...di awal tahun 2009. masa tu, hanya Allah saja yang tahu betapa aku dalam ketakutan.....tapi...sekarang alhamdullillah...sesungguhnya Allah memakbulkan doa ku.

Di awal tahun nie jugak, semua ahli keluarga ku jatuh sakit...demam...lepas sorang ...sorang...termasuk aku sekali....tapi ....sekarang, seperti aku katanya...semuanya dah pulih seperti sediakala. "aku masih ingat kata2 suami ku, setiap sakit yang diturunkan...sekurang-kurangnya dosa kecil diampun oleh Allah".....sampai bila pun aku pasti ingat mutiara itu...